Prison
Poem by Kevin Brown
Prison
Poem by Kevin Brown
From the Archive of Saint Augustine's Magazine
Volume 3, No. 1 (2024).
Prison
is more than this,
than a slammed gate that locks you in,
than walls and mesh-wire
windows, watered down milk served with watered down
meals, than same colored
uniforms on different colored inmates, than bodies herded
in stencilized existence, cuffed
chaos and caged rage, knowing when to stand
and stand down, than
routine branded into mind and muscle, and always
thinking in number scales—
6’x8’, 3 meals a day, 60 minutes yard
time every 24 hours,
names spelled with 8 digits stamped across backs,
4¢/hr, $31.51 in savings,
4 years, 48 months, 298 weeks, 1,460 days.
It’s more than fear,
loneliness, anger and regret, embarrassment and boredom, disbelief
and acceptance, than receiving
care packages of photos, cards and letters, Dora
pictures colored outside the
lines and the best O’Keefe coffee ever drank,
than kid names over
hearts inked with soot and shampoo, than watching
your son grow up
and away, seeing your little girl for the
first time each time,
every Sunday from 1-3, missing dance recitals, graduations,
wedding anniversaries that will
one day be just another date scratched off
on a wall, than
sleepless nights when you realize this is your
life, and nights of
deep sleep when you realize this is your
life, it’s more than
checkers, poker, reading paperbacks and writing letters to
anyone anywhere else, mopping
for minimal wage, drinking liquor fermented in toilets
made from fruit skins
Christmas Eve, toasting friends bound by address through
sentence, than fights won,
fights lost, solitary confinement, gangs, the barter system,
sex or no sex,
religion or no religion, heads raised, heads dropped,
heads watching the shackled
hands of the clock chip 34,944 hours away,
to where the gate
slams and locks you out, where outstretched arms
touch nothing touching back.
Prison was that and more, but not much.
for #34576051
Kevin Brown has had Fiction and Poetry published in multiple Literary Magazines and Anthologies.
He won numerous writing competitions and was nominated for multiple prizes and awards, including three Pushcart Prizes.
Poem published in The Fool's World precursor
Saint Augustine's Magazine Vol. 3, No. 1 (2024).